Lance Witte | Survivor of Addiction
"Addiction is a terrible issue in our society . . . I am so grateful and optimistic with the vision and work that Face It TOGETHER has set out to achieve. In some manner, their efforts will impact the lives of everyone in this nation."
My name is Lance Witte and I am an alcoholic. I am no stranger to the disease of alcoholism as it has been part of my family for generations. I spent years trying to outthink this disease and thought if I was smart enough and successful enough I could beat it. I worked hard academically and professionally, and I was wrong. Alcoholism has no bias and is cunning, baffling and powerful.
I started drinking when I was 15 years old, and at times I thought I was in control. I quit drinking countless times, days, weeks, months and even years during my 25 plus years of drinking. Most of the time, I was unhappy and blamed others and the higher power, which I chose to call God, for all my shortcomings and unhappiness. I pushed everyone that cared for me out of my life and became enthralled in my work because that was what I thought I was successful doing. I was going to control all of the happenings in my life without anyone's help--including God's. This approach hurt others, thankfully not physically, but nearly cost me my life.
Life had become extremely difficult as I went through a divorce, lived apart from my kids and DUI convictions. I continued to believe I was in control, but I was spiraling out of control. The only thing I had left that I continued to pour everything into was my professional work. The way I coped with my personal problems was through the use of alcohol. As time went on, I became internally more and more miserable. By the end, I was barely hanging on, and I was destroyed spiritually and emotionally.
With the help of friends, I entered Tallgrass Recovery to learn how to deal with life and alcoholism. It was an amazing spiritual experience, which one day at a time I hope will save my life going forward. I realized I had tremendous resentments that were destroying my life. I had to come to terms with and take responsibility. I played a role in almost all of them. This disease has no bias and can affect anyone, if not treated and maintained. Today, I am still dealing with the wreckage I have created, but with the help of God and others I am doing well through a program of rigorous honesty.
Today, I have over 29 months of real and wonderful sobriety. I have an inner peace that before I never knew existed. I have a great relationship with my kids that I had not had for some time. My hope is that I can break the cycle of alcoholism in my children.
Addiction is a terrible issue in our society and plays a role in so many other aspects of healthy living. I am so grateful and optimistic with the vision and work that Face It Together has set out to achieve. In some manner, their efforts will impact the lives of everyone in this nation.
Lance L. Witte